oh Deb, you know my condolences are sincere I just don't have the words to verbalise it

but I will say, don't ever feel bad for any feelings of relief you have, your mum knew that you loved her so very much and she would at that time never have wanted to be anything less than she was, so for her it would be a relief too

see, told you I don't have the words but I hope you know what I am trying to say